those kinds of feelings has been tangle up,

Today is real weird,it's just I'm having trouble sorting it all in my head. It's late nite morning here am I awake as usual can't wait to get my ass back to college I'm ready to kick ass for this semester 2 and  I know this would be a tough challenge for me I easily give up & being a failure is not what I want. So lately I haven't done anything that is productive, all I've been doing is sucking up anime drama feeling pathetic I never like to watch those kind of thing It's just the unusual me and I finish up all the episodes for 2 days Whoa I've wasted two days just like that such a waste.I'm not excited for anything, CNY is around the corner and I'm not in the mood for celebrating or gathering around the crowds.I'm asking and wonder why am I like this? have I forgotten how to cherish life.My plan to sleep early tonight, that's not gonna happen every time I sleep my mind will never stop thinking about everything I tried to stop but it seems that my mind is controlling me, Aiyah what am I crapping about at this hour. How am I suppose to sleep peacefully, when there's too many things going on lately and I've been ignoring it, seems like never happen or it was just me I'm not ready to face reality.God help me, Goodbye wonderland. 

mess up or what?

Another week has past by, My holidays feel just a smudge out of whack.Class starts next week but I'm not able to attend since parents still need/miss/blah wants me to stay here so yeah a long holiday for me 2 months. But bad news is I need to retake one of the stupid subject sigh I'm really upset well I try my best again but good thing is I got flying colours for the rest subjects except french well no complains for that I will do better for this 2nd sem a lot of disappointment but oh well.  And so many things to get done before I leave and laziness is conquering me I'm just way too lazy to do everything why am I so LAZY. My sleeping schedule is totally fcuk up, slept 3am everyday which is so unhealthy and waking up noon time I wasted half of the day already,keep it up mereld by that time I'm regretting and complaining to myself just great. Enough now, I'll be back posting soon. Good Nights My fellow's!

It's complicated

A new year, Happy 2012 lovers. Another year to live life to the fullest!

Well January has been treating just "okay", I can't wait for college to reopens as much I hates study but going back there makes me feel alive But I never said that being  here is lifeless I just don't think I should be here some how. I wonder what makes me feel this way every second I thought of it, seems that I'm stuck  in confusion, sadness drowning me inside out and life is falling apart it's just hard for me to describe what exactly I have in mind, I'm always the one who's not good telling or sharing my feelings to anyone the best is to keep it to myself, and I've learned that people may seem one way to your face and act a completely different way behind your back.

I was so adamant on growing up that I focused on all the wrong things.

endtapes

Bonjour my lovelies, Sorry for ze lack of post after my 1st semester ends my schedule is pretty hectic I had so much fun to end lovely November. December is back to my hometown, Yes I'm back home on the first day of December how sweet is that. My hopes was so high getting back here will change everything but hoping too much was not a good idea quiet disappointed nothing change just same old lemo life pathetic plus I'll be doing or not going anywhere on Christmas day =(  guess Imma just spend my day eating & tumblring how sad is that Christmas is this Sunday & I have no plans at all. Please just take me away somewhere far away from here London,Paris,NY oh I must be dreaming.
I've got all the sad songs to listen but no jiggles all the way to take away the sadness but I just hope this is just a temporary feelings cause I know one day or eventually I'll find the right one to be with.
Moving on, I'm a happy kiddo. Bye for now <3

No more fun,fun,fun.

 

 

 

*Helena Beat-Foster The People* #nowplaying.

Just a quick short post won't take that long. A Normal day, nothing extraordinary to describe my Friday it was dull and raining pretty much like yesterday. Went to watch Happy Feet2 on Thursday night with friends, penguins are adowable and the movie was just nice =) . Doing Front Office Revision just now and I'm giving myself 20 minutes break yeah just hope it won't be longer than that. Dad called just now, it was nice to hear from him and knowing that he still cares for me just good to know and makes me missing him even thou we've been through a lot of drama's way back when I was still "tanam anggur" so many memories that never fades away. Life getting better and I'm lovin it! Okay, I better stop now continue my revision and enough with the fun for the weekends I will grounded myself here, Hahaha. 

GoodNights x!

Set fire to the rain.

 

Hello Gloomy Wednesday, my plan for today is doing something productive since my class is officially over but I ended up wasting my time. Woke up in the afternoon, kill my time watching Gossip Girls S4 till 2pm sadly it's getting boring was hoping for more exciting dramas from Blair & Serena but I guess everything is getting dull and bores me out. But thankfully Vampire Diaries save the day watched S3EP9 and damn I seriously can't wait for the next episode to come and obviously 10 times better than Twilight Saga! 

Final is next week, and I'm just starting revising as always the last minute person how can I change that kind of bad habit.Massive sigh, study for 1 hour and rest for more than 1hour I was in the mood of taking pictures so took some random shots around me I guess I was pretty bored now (NOT) and yet I still have the time to blog what a big disappointment. I'll continue study after this, pinky promise to myself no more distraction except the little mosque behind the hostel i don't know how long it will be on I'm just gonna blast my music with Adele's playlist.So many good music to listen these days, It really calms me down all my favourite songs are playing everywhere all I need is a long joy rides to somewhere far away from the city with my friends!

Have you know that FOSTER THE PEOPLE is coming to the city next year! I got so hype and excited when I heard the news spreading around.This is a dream come true, my wish list to see Jared Leto with my own freaking eyes this year has come true why not make another wish? ;) 

I'm sick of being sick now give me happy pills! 

That's enough for today, dear reader's enjoy your night with Pumped Up Kicks!