what was I thinking.

I love my messy hair,but too bad I'm going to cut it short soon well not exactly short maybe around shoulder length or IDK let the hair stylist decide! that's the reason why I took a LOT of pictures.
And of course I'm going to miss it,sigh but then i still can change my mind right? ya know what if, because i have this bad feeling that I might regret cutting it to short,this is just hard i can't even decide.
Anyways, How's everyone doing? I've been sick last few days and now I'm getting all better.
Good news always comes first then the bad ones, I never thought that all this will happen! never expected that person can make everyone upset and us to be mad for good reason. April is a bitch, and so are my surrounding. Why is everything changing I hate this, everyone is losing their sense of humour or what?
Sigh, i gave up with my social life I'll rather stay home now in my own fantasy world where everyone treats each other nice and never tell lies. I wish i could die for a day, and see everyone reactions.
Oh no! negative thoughts again, my mind is polluted with none sense. I need plans and a gate away.  

PAUSE.

I'm feeling so sick.

    

Sneeze out loud and not saying "excuse me" because you know it will happen over and over, I hate this.

I am officially sick, well i was sick but i just hate to admit that I'm getting weaker and being grumpy for no reason. Morning wasn't so good to me,my tummy is starving for food waited for anyone to cook because I'm lazy like a boss naaah I'm just kidding made homemade pancakes with strawberry syrup on top of it. Grandma came back home with a small container of chocolate mint ice-cream and I'm one happy young kid eating like 5 years old. Which I've been craving for it these few days. First day of pms not treating me good at all, i almost swear but then i remembered I've just went to confession. So All i can think now is I can't wait tomorrow to be over, and then Friday to end and Saturday comes!How could I forgot that one important event! I'm not gonna make it sadly :( I want a fresh start and do something productive with my life.

I'll end it now, I'm feeling drowsy,This pain must go away.
Nights owls  ♥

Optimistic.

 

Hello, you baby dolls. Oh wait no one is reading this anyway, how sad is that while I'm still posting trying to tell the whole world my life is miserable or me making it misery. Mom said I'm to free, not freedom or cheap it means I'm jobless and complaining to her the same shit everyday until she get sick listening to it. I'm feeling so useless everyday and not to forget lazy ass. Honestly, I don't know what to do with my life I'm afraid that what if i still have the choice to take it back and everything will goes to the wrong way so that's life after high school much even worse. Love life is pretty boring and doesn't give me the interest to love someone anymore it seems like I've been loving my boring lonely life. I hate sleeping, once i close my eyes and then comes the nightmares or the sweet one and some just ordinary dreams like who ever  I've met and mention their names I'll dream about them i don't want to dream, but just thank God that this few weeks i didn't catch any bad dreams. I want a Dream Catcher.

set me free

Anymore surprises for me April ? or the year 2011 it is a shitty year i will have. Great huh?
It's like things is getting complicated,not even one trying to make it right and fix it.Guess I'll leave it this way and move on. So now throw me out from earth and sent me to planet Mars or maybe to Pluto far from everyone. It's not good to have this kind of thoughts especially when I'm feeling grumpy. I guess Mom was right,yes she is always right all the time & somehow the fact is making me feel depressing. What hurts the most is knowing the truth.
My day turn out perfectly good, i just love it when I'm away from the city & the crowds. It's a wonderful place to get peace & quiet to relax.I regret that i didn't bring extra clothes or else I'll be staying for couple of days. Walking around while reminiscing my childhood days at Kampung and that was the good times back then i was kid and life is a nightmare for me now.

April? Bitch.

Hey blogger's! How's everything going? well mine was pretty okay. Nothing else to brag about, one moment I'm feeling happy and the next thing is I'm just not okay for the whole day no idea why maybe I'm just too bored staying home doing same routine everyday,can't wait fora gate away from here seriously.
Finally I've Made my decision and there's no more confusion! This is it, now I'm waiting for the day comes and please accept me =) Tired for doing nothing,sick of doing the same thing. my words are no longer make sense anymore and i myself blank for a while what did i just type?
Beginning of April,not a good one for me. Thanks a lot. Imma get out from here now.

Bye

As days past by.

High School bestie :)

Darling Dora

Hey you! The last time i blog was on Tuesday. Sorry for the less updates from me,not in the mood to blog until now then i feel like blogging. Okay, i know my grammar are very to sucky so hope you can understand. Hehe. Well, as you all know that SPM's results has reveal and I'm quite satisfy with my result! at least i pass all the subjects what a relieve because i know in academics I'm not really good but thank goodness i pass that's it =) What's next? Being to comfortable staying at home with no worries,jobless,and lifeless i might as well change my mind staying here or not continue study.Still thinking,there's more time for me to think right?no rush.
I'm confuse =( so here am i, doing the same routine every each day and tumblr is the only thing i do. "reblog"
everything seems different lately, why oh why i hate this feelings please go away. I'm missing my schoolmates! and my close friends tidak puas hati jumpa  sekejap that day =[ so many stories to catch up with them and all of them change i mean by the looks of course! everyone is getting older people do change & so am i.
I have no words to share anymore,I'm tired for doing nothing and i can't sleep boredness strikes.
Good nights my fellows.