when i play my favourite song this happens.

Landon's Summer Diary♥, that's how i feel right now,like really.This song means a lot to me =( i hate it because it sound so true and i keep on replay it again and again but it's nice to listen guess i will never get bored listening to TSA.Darn,i shouldn't read the lyrics it makes me feel more even sadder,cheer me up with whatever words you can say to me play me any Rap song's to listen and i'll forget about this,geeez this is not me at all.I need to find myself again.But not with them of course.Well,suppose to get  ready right now out for dinner,but i guess im not going then just stay at home for today =)

Good Morning Thursday,woke up early. Mum mumbling about something i borrow from her early morning and bang my room door i don't know why and that's keeps me awake.Yesterday i had fun with them lazy to list out who but most of the time i spent time with my cousin's :) since next week all of us are going to our own trip! so awesomeee! And it's been a while i didn't hang out with the friends some don't know where the hell already,some lost contact and some don't know don't care lah haha.So went to CP with Sean with his "Bieber hair" ,walk around warisan like death to bored while waiting for the others to come, not gonna type much just summarise everything about yesterday movie totally not scary wasted RM5 for it!then water front,pictures,starbucks peppermint,piercing,MCD for dinner,Shisha & etc that's what happened and get back home 11 something safely :)

Usual days.

HELLO YOU! WHASSUP?

No,I'm not in a hyper mode at all.How's Tuesday treating me? Well let me start from morning,Dad woke me up! yeah daddy is back home middle of the night and bought 6 packs of Famous Amos Cookies for us! 200g each that's a LOT man,i really think im gonna be a piggy at the end of the year! haha. I need exercise so desperately but im too lazy to go down the gym! okay back to the story,dad's back home woke me up 11AM i'm still sleepy but dad just won't let me coz his tired and blah blah blah so i just force myself to get up,had lasagna for breakfast ate half only then as usual clean the house and my room is such a mess by my lil sis and bro,i was pissed coz in a day i clean my room almost 5 times lah kan?so tired.Since it's public holiday mum excitedly take away the lab top and use it for a day updating her 'FB games'!And annoy me do this and that! haha i don't play games never ever except the Sims?hehe and mum won't even give me a chance to use it =[ until just now baru she let me used! YAY! cus Tumblr is back already gila babi reblog gazillions pictures sampai puas hati saya =)happy juga lah kan but still got problem never mind asal dapat reblog happy juga lah,haha i sound like so obsessive to tumblr as if he/she is a human,weird its just a freaking web site bah kan?haha.Plan to go to confession today but everyone seems moody so we didn't go maybe because of the gloomy weather and it's cold!It seems really nice if everyday like this i can sleep and never wake up. Anyways,a day searching for my HP, I have no idea where did my hand phone run away! haha i maybe a forgetful person lately,and another bad thing is i like to set my phone on "silent" mode so it take a while for me to search for it since i get pretty bored already with it i don't ever bother anymore maybe that's it ran away from me! haha at the end of the day i finally found it and  it's in the bathroom! haha I'm not really sure how it goes there never mind next time im gonna hide it somewhere! receive msg's and missed calls from you know who you are,I'm gonna reply soon but not now too lazy since tumblr is back!Dead and Alive now! WoW banyak saya type lah,i shall stop now.

BYE.

A random picture of me.

GOOD NIGHT

feeling dull.

 Hai who ever you are reading this human being from the past & future & from mars.

So today title is blank,i got 1 week to rest & enjoy before my last paper of spm which is arts,yeah pretty easy huh? well,it will be great if the government set the date earlier pfft!

Hooray for me not doing anything for the rest of the day. What  can i say? almost every day raining =( me no likey rain when I'm on holiday mood,why rain? i want to go swimming also cannot anymore! chase pretty boys pun susah,haha! Look at me,really damn bored. The TV scuk,the phone i don't know where i left it somewhere lazy to find it  buang lah dat! haha. Sorry i've been anti-social lately,i'm stuck in the room just me & the labtop having a date every second together.Go out pun don't know where to go,stay at home pun mau jadi insane so tell me is there any other planet out there that have a perfect plans for me to do everyday not including education! hehehe.

Now, blogger it's the only temporary replacement for Tumblr since IDK what the hell happen to tumblr since URGH punya main boring updates saja bloggie no one read aslo all my crap,Arse oh tumblr "we'll be back shortly" kunun sampai next year lah saya tunggu kau ni! haha. LOL shit macam gila sudah me this bising2 here pasal tumblr! hahaha ok ok i stop shitting about it. Sampai BM saya terkeluar sudah ni!

 

It's just another manic Monday! i wish today is Sunday cus cus i cannot wait for next week =) like i'm so excited oh! cannot wait fast lah you Sunday then Monday take seni paper afternoon start again that! lame oh. 

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I talk to much today did i? or type crappy words. 

This is not goodbye yet,i'll be back with songs and blah blah blah.

Facebook is getting boring every each day,deleting list done,i don't care how many fcuking common friends we have im still gonna delete stranger's. Enough with that,Tumblr is under maintenance right now=[ ,PFFT! Twitter is working as slow as snail.dayuum.

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Woke up 10am,had waffles with strawberries on top and syrup then clean my dusty and messy room the whole day,and i am absolutely tired now. My closet is almost full now I'm not sure where to put half of the clothes,school pj's and uniforms are finally out from my closet :) vacuuming the room,saw a spider scream like hell.Tidy the bed,organize my room stuff in order place,and blah blah blah I'm too lazy to mention and i smell like shit and head to the  bathroom take a shower,dry my hair and here i am now.finally can online after a hardworking day.It's eveningalready,i wanted to go for a swim but too many people in the pool.=(

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I wanna updates my phone,need latest song's and any nice song,give me a list! but the download thing is so damn slow,now what? haih. Oh sorry didn't reply some of you guys MSG last night,my mood went upside down so i don't even bother to care about anything else except watching TV.

life,history,memories

Hai there,I'm back again after 6 killers subject and one more to kick it out on 13th and i'll be free but not like a bird.I'm not satisfy with my history paper all i can say is F ck man,but at least i did try my best answering all the Q's.I don't want to talk about,what's next? life after high school?My birthday falls on the 1st day of SPM, i don't really expect that much and i don't even care and i tend to forget that was my special day,well  what can i say i was quite moody on that day i'm not sure why,mum plan to bring me out for dinner instead i quickly when inside the room and lock myself, LOL i feel so bad actually doing that but really i'm not in the mood until for the rest of my  life,haha that was a joke.So as days past, im getting excited leaving HS and i'm feeling old now. A lot of things had change in my life,problems every day,mood swings,i just can't handle it anymore sometimes i feel like giving up almost. But i'm okay now after gone through with hard time and idk people around me that never understand me lah kan?! I cannot trust anyone now,even your close friends is not the person i can trust, i guess all i have to do now is to lie about everything so people can shut their mouth and not to ask or talk about it. I was just saying okay?.

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 "Copy paste" word of the day reminds me of someone which is pretty funnylah actually,i hope you realize that part! Today went out with the cousin,planning to go for a rock climbing,when we reach there early and the place is still closed so we end up to wisma company their mum and walk around for a while,bought  Easy A dvd just done watching it with mum.Then went back there the rock climbing place at likas i end up watching my cuz's frens i was not in the mood for that so walk around the skate board park,take few pictures,fooling around,thinking about learning skateboarding but im too scared but still i wanna try it.Then went to lintas makan2,and went back home in the evening.Well,it went pretty dull i've nothing much to say,my head feels dizzy and the heart got nothing to say.

Hope tomorrow for a better day:)

Good nite/morning.

appreciate life.

12November.

'I I LOVE FRIDAY' ? But not anymore,see i usually get so hype and happy when it comes to Friday & then weekends but then when it comes to reality day by day SPM is coming closer and closer to me,like OMG it's  12november already,shiats how time flies so fast, and the worst part is well im not sure this is suppose to be good or bad SPM falls on the 23rd November on my birthday oh great 1st day aite?How happy am i to hear that?Not.Skip that now, I'm gonna summarise everything happen today shall i?
School  was okay i guess? i can't really remember how it goes it just happen so fast maybe I'm a bit too excited going back home,LOL.I skip extra class which is the LAST time,but no study.Lame so when home at1p.m,clean myself ate Maggie mee+woon toon(?) for lunch.Me and Edrina company Mum to Suria to exchange Lil bro shoe a bigger size,yes his growing=) and naughty! bought some jewellery, went to SR for take away lunch and bought 3 cakes,gosh I'm dying,fattie me =x promise myself after spm i need exercise! last day spm is on 13december and I'll be free!=) oh yes,i can't wait.Well i guess that's all for now,i need to study extra notes on SEJARAH and revise maths! gosh i scuk on that both. SPM days is countless i am so SCARED,panic? DON'T PANIC!

goodbye's.

Meeerald :)

life.

Knock knock* who's here? it's me!

Hello Wednesday. 

Where should i start? well first,school was okay i don't want to complain anymore since I'm leaving soon so yeah.Escape extra class today,i didn't plan to until PMS hit me right after the last bell rings i  was feeling moody and my stomach hurts so bad and then i realize that's the sign only girls knows how it feels like.

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I was upset and starting to feel scared about this and now that I am trying my best to catch up all the chapters that i had leave behind i need to work harder its a must,force myself to do all the things which i really Dislike 

i am burdening myself to study to get a better result then the past exam fcuk that.I just cannot wait this to be over.I hate this uneasy feeling everyday whats up with me? Spm is countless this is not a dream.

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Life's is not perfect,i noticed that people had changed a lot.Well my situation i just felt lost for a moment but then recall back everything that i do especially regrets.Why life have to be this hard? I am not complaining but for sure being a human is real hard to be. One night i was sitting down calming down myself then rearrange school books and i came across ENB Rocky's own,the one who gives me inspiration.

I'm on tumblr =) im out from here now.

EALYC.

hell to the o.HELLO

I'll be away for a while,not leaving but I'm trying my best to stay away from online distraction you know what i mean i guess? this has to be stop or else i'm not sure what will happen.Past few days was great, had great and enjoyable time with families went back to papar celebrating Zoe & Eva belated birthday I'm gonna miss this two little baby! they went back at KL yesterday *sigh.
Moving on,i finally came to realize that no matter how hard i try to erase or delete only God knows what I'm thinking and in the end i must accept the fact that they are your friend's and love one's those memories I've been through will always be remembered.Luck's in life people!
So today, i'm not fully satisfy with my final trial English ain't easy at all i tell you,i did better in excel. i wasn't sure how am i going to face my biggest final exam in my life. i'll try my best for the last this will be my future. Next, some guys in **** im not gonna mention their names here,i seriously hate it when guys treat girls in a rude way. boys like hello? show some fcuking respect it did happen to me & some girls.I swear one day you guys will get your revenge but not through me but just wait and see.All this 2 years,im just being Patience with some of you people attitude's,it became heavier every each day and im still holding it i just don't wanna cause more issue. okay I'm done now,the weather now is getting hotter since this morning. imma need some ice lemon tea please? and im starve for fish&chips! for lunch.
Days past just like that,i just can't wait for November to come.
I'll be back here or anytime.

Good Bye Now love.

spm is next month.fck.

BYE NOW,i won't wasting my time on this for a while,will be back updating on life. one more week to go exam trial to end chop off. I think im into korean drama's lately? fck can't believe im saying that. im sick with choc's i want ice-cream =) oh but still tumblr never leave me.

Thank's A lot

 this won't last forever.

Greeting's hello there =) it's Wednesday yaw.it's been a while i guess? so school was uh mm okay,surprisingly i was happy goin to school why?well if it's holiday season parents won't let me out  and hang around plus spm is soon its coming closer*no*! they take it very strictly so i rather choose going to school than suffer staying at home with all the lecture's! ha ha.that's what happen during my hol's lame eh.
Well life,I've been though up and mostly down and of course regret that's just the past there's no turning back right? I remember Gunny message,all it contains are long advice's & encouragement to make me feel better and realize that there's a long way to go in life,thanks for everything Gunny because of you well i change a little bit? how i miss it those days and lastly I'm just sorry for what ever happened the past and only God knows everything. Gunny will always be remembered my friend=) and here i am with Rocky shoulder to cry on. And here comes Stitch to replace everything and including you. Hey there,thanks for the memories. let's move on now and forget about the painless past.

*random take's*

sometimes cleaning up is fun!

It's Saturday! damn it waking up this morning all i could think is fcuk it's Sunday and then  i realize that it's actually Saturday feels like Sunday eh?. Alone home now,grandma & Edrina went back to Kg today parents and the others is somewhere i don't know where ha ha so just left me here stuck What i did is cleaning up my messy dressing table,its so dusty so i decide to clean and rearrange all the accessories to where it belongs.

After an hour cleaning all these mess!finally its done and i arrange all of it according to its place=) *TA DA*

my oh my hoilday!

Woohoo. yes finally its freaking Friday! hoilday mode is ON now, but still i cannot fully abandon my studies since SPM is soon like so soon dayum im scared man. okay let's not talk about that for now, it's holidaaaay remember? hehe so people tell me what's your plan's? but too bad we only have 1 week for honeymoon mode haha but that's okay after spm that's what I'm waiting spm to be over haha and i can have fun anytime i waaaant=D ! so school finish at 3:40 today at least extra class end a bit early lahg kan than 4:30!? that is like so so late man or else i plan to escape haha no bah. okay moving on,so life? what can i say? it's like a waste of my time sometimes telling some of my prob's as u know that most of the time i like to keep it to myself =X it's a habit already, i just prefer to be that way for now i guess? hehe. duh i know lame eh? but who the hell cares?. bought inception dvd just now i wanna watch it tonite and im still waiting for them to drag me out to watch step up 3! i waaan waan watch it! i saw hottie in that movie muahaha,LOL. i guess im n=just too over excited that holiday is here :) i need reload! now please?.planning to get another spec for myself hope daddy agree with that,lets hope he say yes.ugh puppy Honda is not train well yet,he is being so naughty in the house! im gonna scold him haha! Before i end this i just wanna say "SORRY".

xoxo

late at night,this is what i do.

Yo! peoople :) its almost  2AM and I'm still awake bah i should be studying than doing this. i know right? but still its so hard for me to control my hands off not to touch the lab top geez  why why why? I'm so gonna blame this & FB! hehe. *achho* So daddy saw my report card,lecture me for a while & he told me about his childhood memories how naughty he used to be i LOL when he told me some funny part,guess me & steppie dad get a long again, things were different lately , oh maybe because of my attitude changes everything about me,im gonna fix it and be a better person then. *cough cough* errr its so itchy oh my throat and i almost vomit bah pasal batuk teruk! but malas mau makan ubat,HAHA. hymm okay? i guess i should be on the bed right now, feeling a bit sleepy already,so off to my comfy bed now! tee hee :D Nights nights! eh morning!

Mayday Parade - Jamie All Over

What's up? This morning i woke up early,take my report card with my aunt not my parents. well , 3 fail :( that was disappointed but i told her that my excel result quite okay than trial and she sound okay with that. I'm not at home now,as usual at Leo's house no plans for today i guess, wanted to bring Leo to movie but he got plans with his buddy boo hoo,guess I'm stuck here. Going home soon,and watch Eclipse! mum bought it last night she's on team JACOB just like me :) he he. I wanna watch step up 3 in 3D tonite!! hope dad give me a green light. i'm getting weak ;/ my body don't feel good, dry lips and pale face,i look great with that,LOL *not*. Im leaving now,off to home. 

GOODBYE FRIEND'S.

hey there friday.

 taken on Tuesday evening

Hello there dear reader's, school was okay as usual,but the only thing that distract me is  *achooo* yes that's the one sneezing and coughing the whole day ain't good for me at all, i felt so moody during the lesson's,i plan to skip school today but i don't want to burden mum taking care of me, so obviously I'm sick since last night and now its getting worse yet i still deny to everyone that I'm no sick at all haha. Unlucky me,tomorrow will be the worst day again,what else if not report card? yes i blame myself for not trying hard in my trial well i think i did a bit better in excel? he he. either mum or dad or BOTH? going to take that sh t :O i just hope that dad won't.. *ugh* okay stop with that it's just making me more sick wish me  Luck's :) *mayday parade  playing*. hymn what else should i talk now? for this week I've been through with disappointments/sadness/sickness/short temper people/cries and Lot's of crap going on in Life lately,well at least I'm still alive right? just have to be more patience with my surrounding,and i just remembered that i almost told mum about *something*but then i didn't maybe it's not the right time to talk to mum about it. Last night  dream was funny? I've got a freaking tattoo! omg i even remember that person ask me ''do u want the small needle or the big one?" i was like duh of course the small one.LOL sorry I'm a little bit out of control telling you about my silly dream there's more but ngeh it's just too long! i shall stop now!hehe guess i type too long about my boring ordinary life, sorry peeps hope you won't get bored of it.LOL.

happy reading Love's/friends/passing by.

I ain't wasting my time no more.

journey to the end of august

It's Sunday evening,well nothing much to say now.I've been online since afternoon my parents keep going in & out  from my room checking me what I'm doin haha,i need to study tonight after all not all the time i can online this long,you know it's so hard for me to beg them to let me use the modem so i don't online that much anymore except updating FB from the phone but still wasted my credit eh! Excel 1 is over I'm so glad,at least a bit tension to let go,and i feel like quiting tuition oh i don't know why but that's what i feel only. Lately,i was thinking about selling some of my clothes/stuff to sell maybe I'm gonna open a blog shop but not now just waiting for the right time or next year then,lol. the lab top works so fc king slow and lagging! it's just making me pissed every time i wanted to upload pic's! Anyways hope you guys like the pic's i upload :)

that's it for today,will update anytime i got the chance.And i can't wait for school holidays!.