;i want a job.

Picture of yesterday while waiting for Lui to fetch me.

A lazy Sunday for me. I am a lazy ass who needs to get a job. Morning was a rush one, i am pretty sleepy walking around at Suria while touring the education fair most of the time trying to avoid from the people who promote and conversation so let mum do her role i can't even concentrate walking, Met a few friends from SMSM :) Had lunch at Secret Recipe. And here i am now home,planning to run down to the gym but then it's full i guess the only good time to go there is during weekdays. I am now stuck in this confusion of my life, decision;plans;for future.seeking for a job,just give me any except promoter.Going job haunting with friends tomorrow maybe city mall? the nearest from my house.I saw accident near by the bridge this morning CRV masuk parit beside the factory i wonder how in the hell the person drive so careless. I have nothing much to share and i can't even express it here what's in my mind.
Life is torturing me.

make a wrong turn once or twice.

The Truth or not this is from the heart. I'm not blaming anyone right now, but if you think it's my fault then just go ahead i don't mind because I'm the one started it and so i must end it before things get worse.I'm sorry for everything and i really mean it.Take it slow down and relax no rush in making decision anymore. (reminder)
Maybe it's not the right time for me to be involve this "relationship" or it's just me don't want to be in it yet after a long one and many heart brokens, i then realize I'm still not ready for all that so let's just enjoy lonely life for now I'm young and lifeless and happy =)  it's me now don't worry. No more pretending or who am i again? Yes i was lost like i said before since early of the year I'm not myself and i hate it.
I get so upset and trying to know why I'm acting like a piece of reckless shit.
Thanks to those telling me why the fark im so messed up with my life lately, and not to forget talking with brother freak is good the one who knows me well my satu kapala fren haha.
Well I'm  no longer that person, and let's hope for the best then.
till then,no one is perfect.

where is.

Hai.

What's going on lately, A to Z it's endless conversation with the girlfriends. Well to be honest i don't feel good telling them because deep down inside i know there's this bad feelings i can see it  in their eyes or maybe it's just my mind trying to fool me. I know how fast thing going on lately, i realize everything, feels like banging myself on the wall every seconds,and burden all this inside me it's getting heavier now it's out let's just wait and see what will happen next oh God,why am i having this situation.Yes, life is complicated everyone is not only me so can't complain. Till then im so asdfghjk i can't even think straight right now.

chocolate cake + Tumblr + TSA. :)

Hi lovebirds,Happy Valentine's Day to everyone :) Saya Single so to those out there has the same status with me
I wish ya happy single awareness day! Much love Merald Alyssa  
Well it's true i cannot deny the fact that being single is quiet boring and lonely.I'm still getting use to this situation after a long relationship but as a result so far i'm doing pretty good aite? and there's always a BUT in every conversation when it comes to this topic,so true so false,i can't decide which one is the right answer.
A rough weekend for me,and a good Monday morning to start. I ate chocolate cake and it taste delicious! yes,this is the 3rd day im on pms so i may be craving lots and lots of food that can put me on weight =(  but who cares it's killing me i need food to be happy i want Ben&Jerry! Or java chip.

♥❣♡

if you're not happy then don't clap your hands.

Me and Clementine

A RANDOM POST

HellOh,let's make this simple and short. Another boring day i had, in the room whole day i never watch TV since i step here in KL cause i just don't wanna disturb my aunt's with her children and also it feels awkward,so i prefer to stay lying on the bed like an ass piggy piggy sleeping. Watch HIMYM as usual since I'm done watching Gossip Girl and now still waiting from cousin the next episode can't wait i think I've got addicted to it already and at this moment i sound so girlish.Anyways, it rains in the afternoon i must say it's scary the combination of thunder and lightning sounds really freaks me it's like a war out there compare to KK its different ya know and that keeps me awake. I call almost everyone in my contacts i was damn bored and of course now too >=( . Since i have 2 weeks to spent here,and eating disorder its unhealthy i know that i never ever plan to do it, my uncle own a what they call it "the running thingy" fuck i forgot so yeah it might be useful to me i wanna exercise not gain more weight the foods in here are like heaven i cannot deny how much i love to eat and how i waste my money for it and not to forget shopping too the one who made me broke yesterday,but it's worth it and i promise myself not to shop when i get back to kk that's the deal with mum. I had a lot in mind, making the right decisions in my life and having trouble with this stupid and reckless feeling i have right now.Before i forget to say it, me and ena decide to open a blogshop its a prelove clothes and new one too still processing it since she is buzy with work and half of my clothes are at home so it will take a while when we are done i'll give the link no worries :)
My friday was fun and tired,i finally get to hang out with Clementine aka Titin =) and thank gudness we don't have that awkward moments it feels so good because every first time person i've met i have trouble to talk and uhm AWKWARD that's it but she's nice and friendly and fun to shop with! sistah :)

Okay,i'm done with my crap peeps sorry if there's anything you dislike or annoy with my post then just ignore it like im farking care [=  

ciaos.

I was her.

Hey Bebeh,what's on wednesday? CNY eve's, well sadly this year not gonna celebrating with family and friends =( i miss how i spent my cny time even thou nothing much going on but it feels great to be with them. So i kinda bored right now,Spent to long with tumblr since morning reblong-ing a lot life will be perfect if tumblr is a human i will shut my mouth if you exist in reality. I know how much i hate myself lately, i try to figure out why i think that why it's sad when you know that you must love yourself it's the most important. Step by step i will learn about finding who am i and what i want to be. God please help me,at this time life is good but something missing now tell me what it is =( .I'm good in hiding feelings and pretending to be "okay' that's the best i can do to so far.Can anyone make me smile like before? Damn it. Bye.