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Bonjour my lovelies, Sorry for ze lack of post after my 1st semester ends my schedule is pretty hectic I had so much fun to end lovely November. December is back to my hometown, Yes I'm back home on the first day of December how sweet is that. My hopes was so high getting back here will change everything but hoping too much was not a good idea quiet disappointed nothing change just same old lemo life pathetic plus I'll be doing or not going anywhere on Christmas day =(  guess Imma just spend my day eating & tumblring how sad is that Christmas is this Sunday & I have no plans at all. Please just take me away somewhere far away from here London,Paris,NY oh I must be dreaming.
I've got all the sad songs to listen but no jiggles all the way to take away the sadness but I just hope this is just a temporary feelings cause I know one day or eventually I'll find the right one to be with.
Moving on, I'm a happy kiddo. Bye for now <3

No more fun,fun,fun.

 

 

 

*Helena Beat-Foster The People* #nowplaying.

Just a quick short post won't take that long. A Normal day, nothing extraordinary to describe my Friday it was dull and raining pretty much like yesterday. Went to watch Happy Feet2 on Thursday night with friends, penguins are adowable and the movie was just nice =) . Doing Front Office Revision just now and I'm giving myself 20 minutes break yeah just hope it won't be longer than that. Dad called just now, it was nice to hear from him and knowing that he still cares for me just good to know and makes me missing him even thou we've been through a lot of drama's way back when I was still "tanam anggur" so many memories that never fades away. Life getting better and I'm lovin it! Okay, I better stop now continue my revision and enough with the fun for the weekends I will grounded myself here, Hahaha. 

GoodNights x!

Set fire to the rain.

 

Hello Gloomy Wednesday, my plan for today is doing something productive since my class is officially over but I ended up wasting my time. Woke up in the afternoon, kill my time watching Gossip Girls S4 till 2pm sadly it's getting boring was hoping for more exciting dramas from Blair & Serena but I guess everything is getting dull and bores me out. But thankfully Vampire Diaries save the day watched S3EP9 and damn I seriously can't wait for the next episode to come and obviously 10 times better than Twilight Saga! 

Final is next week, and I'm just starting revising as always the last minute person how can I change that kind of bad habit.Massive sigh, study for 1 hour and rest for more than 1hour I was in the mood of taking pictures so took some random shots around me I guess I was pretty bored now (NOT) and yet I still have the time to blog what a big disappointment. I'll continue study after this, pinky promise to myself no more distraction except the little mosque behind the hostel i don't know how long it will be on I'm just gonna blast my music with Adele's playlist.So many good music to listen these days, It really calms me down all my favourite songs are playing everywhere all I need is a long joy rides to somewhere far away from the city with my friends!

Have you know that FOSTER THE PEOPLE is coming to the city next year! I got so hype and excited when I heard the news spreading around.This is a dream come true, my wish list to see Jared Leto with my own freaking eyes this year has come true why not make another wish? ;) 

I'm sick of being sick now give me happy pills! 

That's enough for today, dear reader's enjoy your night with Pumped Up Kicks!

keep chasing pavements.

Hello weekend :)

Greeting's lovelies! How's November treating everyone so far? Well mine was pretty good I'm enjoying every bit in here.Been living here almost 6months,can't believe that I can get through all this rough times I had.
It's almost the end of my 1st semester, final exam countdown in one more week to go and  now I'm struggling myself to do my revision no more fun. It's Saturday! here am I blogging, sorry I've been ditching blogger seems that I haven't find the right time or not to care anymore. I have one assignment left to be done which is PDP fcuk that I'll finish it by tonight hopefully wanted to to it now but I get distracted by this.
I am easily distracted by anything that attracts me, how can this happen to me?
Mom said I'm a shopaholic since I stepped my feet here, which is sorta true? I can't help myself sometimes or maybe most of the times! sighs wasting money for pretty clothes/shoes/accessories oh my if daddy finds out about this I'm sure he will cut down my budget but right now I'm under rehab to not try buying anything unless if its necessary but it's almost the end of the month hopefully I can have my last shopping Christmas spree in here before going back to hometown. I'm frigging excited going back there, I miss everyone especially my grandma and my siblings no one to love anymore excpet them <3 and not to forget my crazy friends. Oh well, sometimes I'm having those homesick moments when I'm drowning myself with emotionals songs that can drag me to sadness and bler let's skip that part.
Anyways Last week was a blast, Mom came here just for a short trip with her girlfriends and I went up to meet her for sure and stayed one night around Bukit Bintang Mom decided to spent the night at a budget room seems like a creepy place to me which it is! especially the walkways and the entrance gawd I couldn't believe that place is really scary and weird people everywhere not a nice place to stay but the condition inside wasn't that bad the owner makes the place comfy. This is just my first impression living in a budget room, not a hotel or whatever you call but it's cheap and yeah don't cost a lot of money to pay anyone of you can try for once in your life =)
That's it for now, I'll be posting pictures when I have the time. I'm in a mood to study Business English. Might be going to the gym later!

Au'revoir.

HELLO NOVEMBER. Be fcuking perfect and nice.

It's all a big mess in my head and I'm getting frustrated.

Who says I'm gone, right now doing a last minute revision for tomorrow's final test. 

What's new? college life is totally a big change in my life,I'm tired, exhausted, yet motivated and feeling ambitious all at the same time.You know those days when you first hear your alarm and your eyes open, and as soon as your eyes open you realize what a horrific day it's going to be? Yea, had me one of those today.

Oh well it's the end of October, and November comes. <3 I'll be back with more updates!

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21) Good-natured optimist… Doesn’twant to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome)..Indulges self.   Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing.. Doesn’t like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient…. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends.. Flirtatious. Doesn’t like rules… Sometimes hypocritical.. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn’t like being doubted..beautiful inside and out

I think too much.

Hello dear reader's, Mid-term is finally over I was a bit disappointed with my french paper result but oh well I will do my best in final exams.There's a lot of things I should be doing right now but I'm just way too lazy to do it there's a pile of assignments that need to be pass up next week and I have to memorize a long script for F.O.M test. I've been thinking a lot of none sense which end up making me feel sad why does it has to be like this ugh here it goes again. I felt terrible the past few weeks, but thankfully I have a good friends to cheer me up :) and I miss my girls so much I can't wait to meet one of them soon! I feel fat, wait I am I should start exercise and stop eating like a machine wait right now I'm craving for yoyo drink! My saturday was dull Woke up at noon and clean my messy dusty room and I haven't do the laundry yet I am lazy all the time bad habits. Oh well, I'm out of words PDP assignments not done yet! sigh.
Have a Blessed Sunday loves. Nights!

xoxo

lost in the dark, where's the light?

I know it's been awhile and I'm sorry! Right now it is exactly 2:48 am and I have yet to fall asleep. I'm debating on whether or not I have insomnia since I have not had a proper sleep in over four days. So rather than sit here and curse my never ending thoughts, I decided to put myself to good use and write a post! And Greeting lovelies! Any great plans for the Raya Holidays? since I'm not going back to my hometown I'll be going somewhere out from selangor. This week was quite rough for me, there's up and down and mostly down can't complain my life has been always treating like this not a single things change.After what feels like a week of terrible I couldn't hold on everything in here I feel blocked and I just can’t translate what I’m thinking or feeling into these posts.

monday class.

Just a quick update about today. Well today was my first day of class in KDU. It was okay, all we do is introducing ourselves and blah blah blah. Class starts at 8am and ended at 5pm, And each subject held for 2hours so damn long I can't even focusing what the lecturer talking about and the aircond makes me sleepy how great is that! HaHa And Finally I have at least 1 sabahan friend in my course or else i'll be solo and we have to do presentation about "Sabah"! Everything went good, I just love it here that's it.sorry if there's any grammar error i'm not feeling well after the class I guess I'm sick =( massive Sigh.
And oh Happy Birthday to My beloved Daddy!♥

I've got nothing much to brag

First Post for July, Back in Action. Life treating me good these days =) This place makes me feels alive and Yeah guys I got a "LIFE" now, not gonna flashback what I've done where back when I'm such a lazy ass person, I have to say I made the right decision thank you God for all your blessings and guiding me getting through all this misery. Let's start a new chapter of Life =)
And Oh orientation was great, I just can't wait to get my student ID card because I can't get in to the hostel without it, I guess the guard get annoyed with me asking for the "card" everyday.  Hopefully I can get a nice place to stay and cheap I suppose! HeHe!! Well as for now,I'm just gonna live here.
Bye Love. Sleep Tite

uh huh you know what it is.

Heeeeeeeey Owls, Finally I'm back here in KL well so far things are going great came here with my aunt, I'm all Alone after they helped me moved in to KDU hostel last Saturday, I can't picture how this place look like at first and of course i didn't hope for a nice comfy place.oh well  just appreciate what I have right? at least i have a place to live now, everything is all locked up feels like living in a  prison but it's for our safety :) Orientation starts next week can't wait!! This place is so Ghetto, I see nigger everywhere. HAHAHA.

 Bye, Have a blessed Wednesday! =)

what's up?

Hey Owls, just a quick update. Everything seems doing gweat,  pretty much chillin at home doing no'thin! So, one more weeks left to live paradise and i'm off. Me,gettin excited? nah uh not at all, I just want it to be this way forever please? But oh well, life must goes on. Missing em' gurlfriend's, what's the latest gossip? uh huh tell me cush i'm sick of bragging about me living lifeless oh joy, waking up doing the same routine I feel like a pig oh wait,I am. Cut down eating Sweet Sugary Candies are no longer gonna munching in my mouth, i had enough. Almost forgot, dear you giving a chances to know ya better was a good choice but what have you done? silly ass, acting like a brat grow up! Enough for now. Nights! :)

rainy night.

The cold weather makes me feel lazy and get laid on the bed with a nice beauty sleep.I had enough, Slept during the evening so I Had weird dreams no words can't describe about it and it's kinda blur & weird I can't picture it anymore my dreams are slowly fading away. Craving for cupcakes and cheese cakes! I have to stop watching daily cooking shows it's just making me tempting to eat,eat & eat! Anyways, Have you watched Breaking Dawn Part1 trailer? I know most of you out there are Potters Head, but oh well I'm on both sides The Vampire & The Wizards :) not to forget The Wolf, Taylor Lautner oh boy you looking good in that movie can't wait to watch it on November I'm waiting for ya! My mind is empty, can't wait to start reading books, & etc what so ever that I will face in future.Sometimes, I can be very emotional for no reason which I have no idea why I can be very mad Or You can call me a hot temper person it's just uncontrollable. I'm still in the process to stop doing the bad habits, it does take some time but doing the best is the only thing I can do now. Let's hope I'll succeed and refresh my life to a new one. I'm wide awake, my cough medicine didn't help at all it suppose to make me feel sleepy but no it's not working. I'm off to tumblr now.

Ciao motha farker.

Oh Monroe.

Hi Lovelies! Change my blog theme,tell me! what do you think? Marilyn  Monroe! Gosh I just adore her style,she inspire me! I have this in mind making a permanent tattoo of her face but I'm not very sure where and obviously not on the hand.Still thinking, not making a rush decision on this since Daddy give me that 
'I'm gonna kill you' look so that's a big NO from him, my dream is fly to LA and go to LA INK! hahaha dream on merald, and yes I did told Mom about it and she get excited and wanted to have a tattoo too! But Oh well, Maybe when I have a stable job or after college,well  Let's just see how this goes in the future :)
Anyways I've been sick since Friday if I'm not mistaken, I try to ignore the tonsil pain but it's getting worse until now I have bad cough and of course flu Drank a lot of water and which make me going to the toilet like every hour. That's how I'm gonna spent my June, Oh well I hate being sick!I just want to recover soon :]
2 more weeks left and I'm off to where I suppose to go, no parents only with the help  of my aunt & uncle Oh Lord, protect me where ever I go keep me safe from danger including acid man and etc I still wanna live.
I worried too much, I need to chill or a drink. Night.

Enough is enough.

What's up doll?Time falls away I can't believe it's June already I've been waiting for this month since march and finally yes, finally it's here. Hymmm not really in that excited mode or looking forward to that. Should I stay or what? since well that's another story I'm not gonna bring it up here. Shit, I don't feel good now I guess soon I'll get sick or something oh great just great. And oh, How i wish I never related to you I never ever wanna see your face after getting it back but you're the one who running away from me. Huh?! what the hell are you trying to do? "Oh ask her to see me"!! PUI. Bikin Panas ja pandai guna tapi tidak kasi balik, silakanlah lah post benda yg mengarut buang masa sya sja mau lyn org mcm kamu.Okay calm myself down,The Lord is testing me.

hello world :)

 

 

Went back Kampung on Sunday and slept there for 2 nights, Spent time with the cousin's and relatives celebrating our Moing Anniversary but didn't get chance to take pictures on that night I was too tired,anyways pictures above are taken there obviously :) was bored randomly took shoots my surrounding,it was so hot and I get sweaty and smelly but it was worthy at least I get to improve my photography skills hehe. So what do you think?

let's skype.

 

Hello Happy Face, I'm wide awake now thinking what to do till I fall asleep. Finally, it's peace & quiet now the siblings finally sleeping like piggy after one whole day making such a big mess and cries a lot today I almost scream at them but I have to control my anger. Try listen this song coming clean by Chase Coy that song describe who am I well pretty much. Missing some high school friends, I wanna hang out with them! =( 

Oh almost forget,I pass the computer test what a relieve and looking forward to the next session and finish all of it if that possible before I leave again. I kinda excited for that. hehe. Let me have a good night sleep tonight and a sweet dreams.

My sunny side has up and died

Whaddup!
I no longer a eating machine, scratch all the junks and fast foods. I can deal with it That should be no problem for me, I can do this.Positive thinking, let go all the negative thoughts.So now, I wonder why this feelings makes me down,am I that sensitive? I should be prepare for June, how badly I wanna leave here, but deep inside it's hard for me to say goodbye but there's so many reason why I should go instead here but once I go there I can't never go back to where I belong I will face this. God help me, I'm lost.

pain

Nothing can make me feel good when I'm having pms. Hello there, Oh my I look so round in that picture.
Little Brat better think before react or post any stupid actions but oh well I'm gonna let you do what ever you want my part is to laugh and let God do his works. I'm not gonna take action now, just let it be because I ain't gonna start a stupid silly fight. Your words are no longer making me weak, I guess I have to put you in the book of joke or something. I need to watch Korean drama's or any comedy movies to make me laugh. I can't even listen songs from the lab top now, the sound settings is fcuk up I have no idea how to fix it or make it right. Haven't start revise driving computer test And I need to take it ASAP but my brain is not function how the hell am I motivate myself to study when I enter college? I don't think i'm ready. Bummer!!
Well,nothing much to brag about my life now so good nights blogger's!

Be grateful.

Wanna make the world dance, forget about the Price Tag Now Playing. Oh Hello dear reader's,
how's May treating you ? Mine was just okay, Took random pictures just to fill up my post since I'm bored.
Well Last Sunday was Mother's Day.it turns out uhmm "okay" I guess. I'm upset for what had happened I'm sorry Mom my heart breaks into pieces,I can't never forgive myself, Look thru our old pictures and reminiscence those days just me & Mom before she met "Dad" . Life was hard that time, until he showed up and marry Mom. I was 10 years old that time and he accepted me as his own daughter. I never had that
"father and daughter" feelings although I know our relationship can never be that close . I'm doing my best to know you more Dad, thanks for everything making my Momma happy and love her for who she was and patience enough to handle me. Enough for that, I can't never be good enough to be a perfect daughter/friend/lover/sister. Nights Owls ♥