As days past by.

High School bestie :)

Darling Dora

Hey you! The last time i blog was on Tuesday. Sorry for the less updates from me,not in the mood to blog until now then i feel like blogging. Okay, i know my grammar are very to sucky so hope you can understand. Hehe. Well, as you all know that SPM's results has reveal and I'm quite satisfy with my result! at least i pass all the subjects what a relieve because i know in academics I'm not really good but thank goodness i pass that's it =) What's next? Being to comfortable staying at home with no worries,jobless,and lifeless i might as well change my mind staying here or not continue study.Still thinking,there's more time for me to think right?no rush.
I'm confuse =( so here am i, doing the same routine every each day and tumblr is the only thing i do. "reblog"
everything seems different lately, why oh why i hate this feelings please go away. I'm missing my schoolmates! and my close friends tidak puas hati jumpa  sekejap that day =[ so many stories to catch up with them and all of them change i mean by the looks of course! everyone is getting older people do change & so am i.
I have no words to share anymore,I'm tired for doing nothing and i can't sleep boredness strikes.
Good nights my fellows.

keep calm & carry on

Hai is just an introduction to escape from awkwardness having a conversation with someone I've just met.
I wanted to blog this since afternoon but i have no words to share, thinking after thinking and still there's no words to describe my day.  I had this feeling not sure what it is maybe a head over heels to something or i don't know trying to ignore this shitty feelings inside me. Expectation for something that is no longer what I'm hoping or wishing for after what Ive been through so it's a waste of time maybe karma hit me that time learn my lesson now it's just me and myself living my damn boring life.Not seeking for anyone,but a job is what i need :)
School holidays? what is that,everyday is a holiday in my world. HAHAHA i now can laugh with my sinister smile all the memories in high school will never be forgotten especially friends.
Highlights for this month.
Well, for our year "2010" candidates! everyone mention about it and even dreamt about it totally lame.
i know the date will be reveal soon so is the result
yes, i am scared.who doesn't? And i don't even have the urge to know when it is,what else if not SPM results. It's like getting a messages from the death.It will reveal soon,the only thing I'm hoping for a good result that's it. Move on cause there's no turning back unless you have a time machine.

to the past?no! fast foward please.

Kimmy at my crib for 4 hours.

Ena showing her cuteness

my awkward smile,and kim's doin her "nk" face.

kim braided my hair we were bored.

Picture above was so yesterday story, long story short went to watched Black Swan at Suria so my first impression is i was completely confuse and in the end it make sense already.And the rest of the day.... well i forgot what we did actually gosh i had shorten memory at this age already? that is not happening.
I'm now thinking what else to share about guess my mind isn't focusing right now. So i had a bad dream last night almost the same one i had last January,yes almost everyday i had different dreams and i never like to share and talk about it even the good ones,maybe all these dreams it's a sign or something but some how i felt it's like dejavu when my dreams became reality which is kinda scary for me when i recall back what happened some dreams just stays in my mind and some just fading away once i woke up. Mind please stop thinking when i'm trying to get some sleep reason why i hate sleeping early my mind keeps rewinding the past fcuk up.

when boredom strike.

Perfection is not what I'm aiming for but to be a better person. Everything i do or said feels wrong. I'm not here to let my anger out or sharing the wrong thoughts besides what I'm thinking and what i felt.

Might be deleting my blog and facebook account soon keeping it low profile by then. Can't even help myself not surfing the net everyday,it's a part of my life now so is everyone I'm trying to control myself not logging in FB that much,yes idiot how am i gonna do that. I am seeking for a job that suits me,not trying to act like a picky one but my mom wants me to get a job that can improve my abilities.

Three days experience.Did i forgot to mention it's been 1 month i left SIC college for good reasons,and updates from my ex colleagues from kk they quit too after i left. Picture above taken at Starbucks Subang Jaya,SS15 :) either MCD or here the only place i can hang around or wasting my time staring people passing by rushing in and out to their own college. My morning wasn't that bad going there 2hours early before class starts at 10am,blame transportation problem i have to follow one of the neighbour who works at Taylor's and she's nice.Well i met new people there, mostly indians they are a good company to be with and also a joker  almost the whole period especially during moral class.
The rest of the weeks,spent my time at home,shopping,hanging out and remembering places around Petaling Jaya,Puchong and others who knows i might be coming back there and easy for me to know familiar places already so far, and hating the part where i felt lost and blur where am i. Big city,crowds everywhere,cars bullied here and there and swear words everytime.I'm gonna face it sooner or later.

enough with the fun.

 making pizza for the siblings

 sean my gay partner

 the lovers. haha JK

 muka cina sasat.

lil GAP! 

Today and yesterday was "okay" , Not in the mood to type since i feel so fcuk up since last night and now. Massive SIGH. So,daddy is back from outstation today and with his typical moods can't complain. 

Went to church today at Stella Maris sat with them leo,zeke and Aaron Lot's of stories to catch up with them but it's inside the church so can't chit chat.Dinner with family and back home.Still thinking about going to LifeTeenBootCamp I'm not sure yet.I'm just disappointed right now that's it, that heartache feelings for no reason i guess only God knows why i feel like this today,now i'm Trying to ease the pain.

Updating Tumblr after this post,so off i go forgetting everything by doing "reblog-ing".

Good Nights/morning.

i am number what? :)

 six of us :)

Yesterday was great,having good time with the girlfriends celebrating Ashley's birthday. Went to Sailor's for lunch all of us were starving and ordered a lot of western foods and the food is yummy and in the end all of us are damn full couldn't  take it anymore but it's Delicious except jinder order the wrong spaghetti hahaha. After lunch,went to Suria for movie watched I AM NUMBER 4,yes AP is way too hawt and not to forget that sexy chick with her motorbike dude, can i have it? and suddenly there's a black out in the end of the movie! we missed the ending part =( well, i'm planning to watch it again! not to forget why i kept laughing all the way is because the bad characters look like Lord Voldemort in the movie hahaha funny and scary LOL i've just crap myself out for that.Movie ended around 6 something,sent ash cousin back to inanam and dinner at upperstar with Serena and CJ.The rest of the nights is history most of the time watching them 3 freaks singing and laughing :)  Plans for tonight? Christal's house. so off i go now, cleaning my messy room.

hey march,PAKYU.

First day of March and i feel incredibly miserable.I can't even start with a happy hello for you, why is everything a mess.Maybe 2011 is not a good year for me, treating me like hell since January till today :(
I can't do this anymore, give up in life? no, it's too early i still wanna live my life to the fullest maybe this is just God's plan torturing teaching me how to be a good person,I'm a human not a robot,i feel so weak when i hear all that from your mouth and i can't even stop mourning for everything the whole night,and the worst part is no one is there for me.Thanks a lot Universe!